To whom it may concern,
As I said in the past, I'll save you a seat at a cafe in Italy. If you ever get there, I'll have an espresso waiting.
What I want to say is how I was and still am Immature. The only difference is that I have a direction now.
I know your family was a big factor in my decision making process, but I have grown to love your mom and kind of miss that big ole kennel of dogs you guys have.
I was not ready for anything that I promised you and I'm sorry I led you on for so long. All the motive behind being single was for self-fulfillment and lust. I guess it has been shown that lust can over power romance.
I regret my choices some days and praise them on others due to the fact that we are still finding ourselves. For example, the whole weed smoking deal. I lost interest over time, it just takes time for it to work itself out, development.
I can go on and on about hows school, your roommates...yada yada, but that's what texting is for, empty, well sometimes empty, messages.
Nobody can delete or backspace the written word.
I'm now just yammering on about nothing, but the thoughts can flow freely.
The first letter I drafted was more a proposition, which is why I felt it to be inappropriate. So now, just a letter apologizing and realizing my faults and missteps.
If, and only if, you were wondering, I am still single. I see everyone else with their boyfriends and girlfriends and I realize it would be great to have that someone for support, warmth, dependence, simple conversation, etc... I am not sad that I find myself alone, I just get that feeling of "when will it be my turn."
I've never been the most reliable or loyal for that matter. I don't open myself to everyone, which I have determined to be a defense mechanism; detrimental sometimes, but not many people break that shell, so I guess it serves its purpose well.
I will end with saying that I am never going to ask you to leave your current significant other because that is the kind of person I am. I love to see others happy. It gives me hope, that those feeling between people still exist. No matter how rare, it still exists.
If you feel like replying, it is always great to hear from you.
Thomas McKay
"My life experience is minimal compared to some, but it is an experience that only I will ever understand."
As I said in the past, I'll save you a seat at a cafe in Italy. If you ever get there, I'll have an espresso waiting.
What I want to say is how I was and still am Immature. The only difference is that I have a direction now.
I know your family was a big factor in my decision making process, but I have grown to love your mom and kind of miss that big ole kennel of dogs you guys have.
I was not ready for anything that I promised you and I'm sorry I led you on for so long. All the motive behind being single was for self-fulfillment and lust. I guess it has been shown that lust can over power romance.
I regret my choices some days and praise them on others due to the fact that we are still finding ourselves. For example, the whole weed smoking deal. I lost interest over time, it just takes time for it to work itself out, development.
I can go on and on about hows school, your roommates...yada yada, but that's what texting is for, empty, well sometimes empty, messages.
Nobody can delete or backspace the written word.
I'm now just yammering on about nothing, but the thoughts can flow freely.
The first letter I drafted was more a proposition, which is why I felt it to be inappropriate. So now, just a letter apologizing and realizing my faults and missteps.
If, and only if, you were wondering, I am still single. I see everyone else with their boyfriends and girlfriends and I realize it would be great to have that someone for support, warmth, dependence, simple conversation, etc... I am not sad that I find myself alone, I just get that feeling of "when will it be my turn."
I've never been the most reliable or loyal for that matter. I don't open myself to everyone, which I have determined to be a defense mechanism; detrimental sometimes, but not many people break that shell, so I guess it serves its purpose well.
I will end with saying that I am never going to ask you to leave your current significant other because that is the kind of person I am. I love to see others happy. It gives me hope, that those feeling between people still exist. No matter how rare, it still exists.
If you feel like replying, it is always great to hear from you.
Thomas McKay
"My life experience is minimal compared to some, but it is an experience that only I will ever understand."
